Raindrops plopped and streaked down the windshield. Amanda looked through the distorting blobs of water, watching the brown metal door across the parking lot. Her hands gripped the steering wheel tight, eagerly awaiting the moment of action. Twilight was rapidly approaching and the contrasts of dark and light seemed to dance through the falling rain. Her windshield wipers squelched across the glass, momentarily hiding the heavy sound of rain on against the car. Then the drumming resumed. A rhythmic bump-badda-budda-bump-a-bumpa sound of raindrops falling all around her.
A light flipped on over the brown door. The eerie yellow halo of light, combined with the distortion of the rain, made the cream white bricks of the building look sickly and sagging. The light sent a slightly distorted yellow circle along the wall, sidewalk and shrubs near the door. With the light shining on it, the brown door looked like a heavily shined deep red-orange plank. A streak of white paint jutted at an angle in the top left corner and a shining silver knob stuck out on in the middle of the right side, but otherwise, the door was a smooth, dark slab tucked in the depressive off-white brick walls around it.
The door softly slid open. Amanda's legs and arms tensed and she felt her fingers grip tighter around the steering wheel. She stared intensely as a woman shook her bright green umbrella through the doorway and then shuffled out into the rain. She wore a black overcoat that extended past her knees. In one hand she held her umbrella and dangled a floppy green-and-white striped bag. Her other hand gripped frantically at the arms of two small children in bright pink raincoats bouncing wildly along the sidewalk beside her.
Amanda's muscles relaxed with a sigh and she settled back into the driver's seat. Her fingers tensed and relaxed methodically against the steering wheel. She softly depressed her right foot and felt the subtle rev of the engine. She watched as the woman shouted and groped after her children, half dragging them down the sidewalk into the near darkness of the rain. Amanda watched the silhouettes continue to a minivan parked in the middle of the parking lot where the woman began the struggle of getting the children into the car.
A flash of light pulled Amanda's eyes back to the door. It had opened once again and she watched as a man stepped through. He pulled the hood of his light blue raincoat over his head and checked the flaps of the messenger bag he held in his hand. Amanda's eyes narrowed to slits as she watched him stare into the darkness beyond the halo of light in which he stood. Amanda had parked close enough that she would be able to identify people as they left the library, and yet she was far enough away that she doubted anyone would be able to distinguish her sitting in a darkened car.
Still, she watched as the man stared directly towards her. His face was half hidden in the shadow of his hood, but she could make out his square jaw covered with just a touch of brown stubble grown since this morning's shave. She could see the dark outlines of his well trimmed mustache. Even with his hood up, his jacket was loose enough to see the starched collar of his blue and white striped shirt. She was fairly certain she could even see the bright red knot of his favorite tie.
Even if she hadn't been able to see his face, Amanda knew him well enough from the his build and the way he held himself. He was tall, over six-feet. His shoulders and chest were broad which looked strange when set atop his skinny string-bean legs. The way he swung his arms, especially the one holding his ever-present messenger bag, was even distinctive. When standing, unless otherwise engaged, he had a strong tendency to sway his hands and forearms in a small circular pattern, almost as if leading music at waist level.
Amanda watched as he continued to stare. She could almost feel his eyes piercing through the rain and stabbing her through her heart, yet another wound never to heal. Amanda was sure that many minutes had passed, for when faced with immeasurable decisions, time often appears to stand still. When the man finally began to step down the sidewalk towards the darkness, Amanda wasn't even conscious of her initial actions. She had rehearsed them so many times.
Amanda quickly shifted the car into Drive and slammed the pedal to the floor. She felt the tires slip momentarily on the wet asphalt of the parking lot and she gripped the steering wheel tighter to adjust her path. As the car accelerated, she was worried she was parked too far away and that he would see the danger and sprint away before she reached him. Still, as she watched the speedometer creep above 10 and then 20 miles per hour, she smiled at the realization that he would soon be out of time.
Her eyes focused intently as he stepped towards the edge of darkness and off of the sidewalk. She watched his silhouette slowly meander in the direction of his car. He suddenly looked up, but not towards her. Keeping him in view, Amanda glanced in the direction of his gaze and saw the minivan, its interior light bright and two doors wide open. The mother was outside shouting something at the young girl in the bright pink raincoat running back towards the library door.
In a split second, Amanda realized that their paths would soon intersect. At the same instant, the man turned his gaze to the approaching car. She didn't know whether or not he recognized her, but she watched as he turned back to the young girl and began waving his arms, shouting and running towards her. Amanda instinctively turned the steering wheel to adjust the car's path to follow him. When she again saw the child, the shock of what she was doing jolted her senses.
Amanda whipped the steering wheel hard to the left and pounded her foot hard against the brake. The tires screeched in protest and then the car started to spin. Watching out the passenger side, Amanda saw the man scoop up the young girl and run away from the library with her in his arms. The car was nearly backwards as the tires bounced over the curb and up onto the sidewalk. The impact of the car against the creamy bricks threw Amanda back in her seat, whipping her head hard against the neck rest. As the car settled to a stop, she fell forward onto her arms, her fingers still tightly wrapped around the steering wheel.
For a moment the only sound to break the silence was the drumming of raindrops on the car. Then a few heavy metallic clangs jostled the car. Looking up, Amanda realized there was more light around her than she expected. Looking first into the rear view mirror and then twisting her neck around, she saw that the rear corner of the car had slammed hard enough against the wall of the library to knock free a large section of bricks which had fallen against the trunk of the car. The resulting hole was probably 4 or 5 feet wide. Astonished and frightened faces stared at her through the jagged gap.
She turned away, unwilling to meet their gaze. She then remembered to check on her original quarry. Slightly disoriented from the crash, it took her a moment to find him in the darkness over her left shoulder. He stood beside the woman from the minivan who was frantically hugging and kissing her young daughter. The man looked up and, even through the darkness and the rain, he was close enough that Amanda could see his eyes. She felt his anger, confusion and disapproval sear into her eyes and penetrate into her soul. She tried to break the gaze but couldn't look away. She felt her throat constrict and her head began to cloud over.
She finally forced herself to look away and stared instead down the hood of the car. On both sides of her, she could sense movement. To her right, a crowd began to form by the door. People were pointing and staring, but no one was willing to step towards the car.
Amanda felt tears form at the edges of her eyes. She knew she should get out of the car. She knew she needed to justify her actions. To confront her accusers. To explain to them why they didn't need to fear her, but instead should help her overcome the vile man standing in the rain to her left. Looking again at the man, she saw him start walking towards the car. Her breathing quickened and every muscle in her body tensed up. Instinct took over again and she slammed her foot down on the gas pedal, tensed her fingers around the steering wheel and swerved her way off the sidewalk, out of the parking lot and onto the dark quiet road leading away from the library.
Tears flowed freely now and her sobs were gasping spasms that shook her entire body. She didn't know if it was because of the rain, the tears or the emotional shudder that ran through her body, but Amanda realized too late that the light was red. As her car sped into the intersection, she heard the screeching of tires followed closely by the explosive sound of metal and glass crunching and shattering all around her.
And then, all that remained was the soft bump-badda-budda-bump-a-bumpa drumming sound of rain falling on the car.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Happy Birthday Julia
Last week, my little Julia turned 6 years old. On Friday night, we let her choose what she wanted for dinner and she wanted to go out for chinese food. So we headed over to our fave Joy Luck Restaurant for a very tasty meal.
Cinderella was very sweet and excited to see the young girls. She gathered them all together in the living room and started asking what princesses they each knew about. She sang parts from Disney songs and had them identify which princess had sung that particular song. She then told her own story about how, in spite of her stepsisters and stepmother angrily interfering, her fairy godmother had come to the rescue and helped her go to the ball and how she met and fell in love with the prince and later was rediscovered thanks to the glass slipper and had then married the prince and lived happily ever after.
The party guests were very excited by all the princess fun. It continued by giving each of them a chance to have their picture taken with and their face painted by Cinderella. All but one of the girls had their face turned into a colorful butterfly and our young pirate became a wonderfully frightful tiger.
As the party continued, Cinderella brought out her glass slipper for use in a couple of games. She also brought some fun crown crafts that each of the girls could do while waiting for everyone to get their face painted. After a few more fun games and the chance to have Cinderella sign their pictures, Cinderella and Lady Cassidy had to return to their castle. I can definitely recommend the folks at "Princess Parties" for the wonderful job they do. If you have a princess in need of a party, definitely check them out (they're local to Bountiful, but will travel for a small surcharge).
We brought in the awesome Cinderella cake that Lynette had made. The party guests then sang Happy Birthday to Julia and let her open her presents. She got some fun gifts and was able to play with her friends before their parents came.
The next day, we had our family come over for a birthday dinner. Unfortunately, our kitchen had flooded a few days before thanks to our possessed dishwasher. So our kitchen floor was slightly torn up and we had industrial strength fans and a dehumidifier blowing. This made dinner preparation and serving a bit tricky. Fortunately the weather cleared up a bit and so the young cousins were able to eat and play outside. Everybody had a lot of fun hanging out, eating a lovely pasta dinner and just chatting. Grandma McKean made some fun "happy birthday julia" cupcakes and we all sang Happy Birthday again and let her open a few more cute presents.
By the end of the weekend, Julia had been truly treated like a little princess.
Happy Birthday princess Julia. We love you very much. :)
Phishing - A PSA and a Quiz - How well can you score?
If you've had an email address for any length of time, chances are you've received something that could be categorized as Phishing. The basic idea behind phishing is that somebody (or a group of sombodies) creates a process for drawing in unsuspecting users and having those users provide them with otherwise secure or sensitive information (such as usernames, passwords, credit card info, and more). There are a number of phishing scams I'm aware of that go via the phone or even snail mail. But probably the biggest and easiest opportunity I see is for phishing via email.
I received an email and link to this quiz as an advertisement to use Verisign's services to help ensure security on our websites.
I thought the quiz was pretty interesting and wanted to share it. While I don't know that you'll be out looking to purchase Verisign security/authentication/etc, I think it is good for people to be aware of just how easy it is to be tricked into handing over your personal data to a phisher/hacker.
I know plenty of people who are just tech literate enough to muddle their way through documents, randomly surf the web, and read/reply/forward emails. It's these users who are likely in the most danger of being caught.
However, there are even plenty of opportunities for tech proficient users to be caught in a phishing scam, especially with how good some phishing schemes have become.
So…take the quiz. Learn some of the more common gotchas that you should steer clear of. I'd be curious to know how you scored so stop back here and share your scores. :)
I received an email and link to this quiz as an advertisement to use Verisign's services to help ensure security on our websites.
I thought the quiz was pretty interesting and wanted to share it. While I don't know that you'll be out looking to purchase Verisign security/authentication/etc, I think it is good for people to be aware of just how easy it is to be tricked into handing over your personal data to a phisher/hacker.
I know plenty of people who are just tech literate enough to muddle their way through documents, randomly surf the web, and read/reply/forward emails. It's these users who are likely in the most danger of being caught.
However, there are even plenty of opportunities for tech proficient users to be caught in a phishing scam, especially with how good some phishing schemes have become.
So…take the quiz. Learn some of the more common gotchas that you should steer clear of. I'd be curious to know how you scored so stop back here and share your scores. :)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Review - A Tale of Two Cities

I can honestly say that I wanted to give up a few times as I started. The famous opening lines were interesting ("It was the best of times it was the worst of times…"), but as the story went on, it was a balancing act. For the first 50 or 60 pages, I had to readjust myself to Dickens style. I had to try to care about a myriad of characters without knowing who was going to be important or what their importance would be. I was tossed around between a few locations and seemingly random stories. The writing was gorgeous, the characters were full and the situations were interesting, but the overall pacing of the story felt like it was crawling very slowly. I felt like I was turning page after page and gathering data that felt insignificant. I felt as though I had no clear understanding of the overall plot or the prospective arc of the story and thus I had no way of knowing how quickly (or if at all) I was progressing along that arc towards any type of intrigue, climax or conclusion.
Still, I loved the language and I was intrigued by the characters and wanted to find out how they would interact and where their paths would lead. So, I pushed through. As I passed into the 100+ page mark, I had a clearer idea of the relations of the characters and could start to guess at upcoming events. Halfway through the novel, the intensity really took off and for the last 150-200 pages, I had a hard time putting the book down because I was so invested in what was going on and truly NEEDED to know what was going to happen.
I felt that Dickens did a wonderful job creating vibrant characters that I could intimately invest myself in. I felt great compassion for Doctor Manette and Lucie. I had genuine concern for Charles. I literally shuddered as I got closer and closer to Madame Defarge. Even the peripheral characters and their more minor stories were engaging. I was worried about Cruncher and Miss Pross as they tried to escape Paris. It was interesting the way seemingly minor characters would wind in and out of the story taking on larger roles at times and even becoming highly pivotal characters.
In addition to the wonderful tension in the story and the amazingly vivid characters, I think one of the amazing aspects of this novel is the portrayal of the French Revolution itself. I'm not a historian by any stretch. My knowledge of the Revolution is largely limited to a brief history lesson in High School and reading and watching The Scarlet Pimpernel and Les Miserables. (I kept expecting the Pimpernel to swoop in and save the day…alas, he didn't)
So I have no idea how accurate Dickens portrayal is. But I did find that his descriptions of the buildup and eventual explosion of the Revolution is amazing. I loved that he showed some of the actions that led up to the hatred. As the book went on, the atrocities of the upper class became more and more heinous to the extent that I could relate and empathize with the Revolutionaries to some degree. But as the powder keg erupted into the absolute thirst for blood and vengeance, it became frightening how all-encompassing the hatred was. I really felt the sense of the flood that flowed through Paris and the absolute horror of the thing. While this is a work of fiction, I think this portrayal of the Revolution was absolutely amazing.
Now that I've finally read this novel, I feel really bad that it took me so long to get to it. I also feel like, now that I know the trajectory, the first ~50-100 pages would be more intriguing. I can truly understand why this book is considered a classic and is so open for discussions. It provides plenty of conversation about humanity and history. It also displays lots of intriguing literary techniques that are very cool.
I absolutely recommend that everyone makes time to read this book at least once in their life.

5 out of 5 stars
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Thursday, March 25, 2010
The Truth about Truth - Can you Spot the Lie?
In my 10th grade English class, there was a closet length poster with a somewhat lengthy quote about creative writing. I sometimes wish I'd written it down, but I remember the general message being something like this: "Creative writing is coming up with a lie that is believable enough. Even better creative writing is that writing in which you reach the end and realize you were telling the truth."
I came across a more concise version as told by author Stephen King: "Fiction is a lie, and good fiction is the truth inside the lie."
Over the past few weeks, I've been trying to get back into a pattern of writing and find my writing mode again.
In the middle of starting to write again, I've apparently been awarded the "bold faced liar….er….creative writing blogger award" as shown here (thanks Phoenix).
As with many/most blog awards out there, this one comes with rules.
First, you get to play a little game I'll call "Spot the Lie" in which I list 6 facts about me. Then you get to hop into the comments and try to guess which is the lie. I'll wait for a handful of guesses and then (if I'm feeling generous) I might reveal the lie.
Second, I get to pass this award on to 6 other bloggers out there.
I'm not sure which is going to be harder (coming up with truths/lie or narrowing down the award list…there are so many good creative bloggers out there).
Without further ado, here we go.
I look forward to seeing what truths/lies you all come up with. (Oh, and to the many other blogs who I follow...you are truly nominated in spirit...This really was a hard list to narrow down and I'm sure if I did the list again, those who filter to the top may be different...I enjoy reading all of you *grin*)
I came across a more concise version as told by author Stephen King: "Fiction is a lie, and good fiction is the truth inside the lie."
Over the past few weeks, I've been trying to get back into a pattern of writing and find my writing mode again.
In the middle of starting to write again, I've apparently been awarded the "bold faced liar….er….creative writing blogger award" as shown here (thanks Phoenix).
As with many/most blog awards out there, this one comes with rules.
First, you get to play a little game I'll call "Spot the Lie" in which I list 6 facts about me. Then you get to hop into the comments and try to guess which is the lie. I'll wait for a handful of guesses and then (if I'm feeling generous) I might reveal the lie.
Second, I get to pass this award on to 6 other bloggers out there.
I'm not sure which is going to be harder (coming up with truths/lie or narrowing down the award list…there are so many good creative bloggers out there).
Without further ado, here we go.
Spot the Lie
- I was terrified of roller coasters and refused to ride them until I was literally dragged onto one in my mid-teens, after which I became a huge lover of thrill rides.
- In 5th grade I went to the state capitol and interviewed our Governor to get his views on Education for part of a school project.
- As a Junior in High School I had a bit part in a Star Trek clip as a young Klingon Captain engaged in a battle with a crew led by Captain James T. Kirk (as played by William Shatner)
- I worked at Microsoft for 5 years in game development on a number of sport titles for PC and later for the launch of the Xbox Game System.
- On a trip to Disneyland in 1985, I was chosen as one of 30 kids to march in the daily parade celebrating Disneyland's 30th Anniversary.
- When my wife and I were dating, I delivered flowers, balloons and a card to her on our first Valentine's Day together and then drove 300 miles to go to a college dance with another girl.
And the Winners Are (in no particular order)
- JM Diaz at An Ulterior Motive
- Logan at Rememorandom
- Shannon at Ramblings of a Wannabe Scribe
- Brii at Adjectives on a Typewriter
- The Writer at The Writer's Notebook
- Trulee (and the rest of the gang if they want) at Takra
I look forward to seeing what truths/lies you all come up with. (Oh, and to the many other blogs who I follow...you are truly nominated in spirit...This really was a hard list to narrow down and I'm sure if I did the list again, those who filter to the top may be different...I enjoy reading all of you *grin*)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Wednesday Writings #2 - Daydreaming with Huck
Donald stared blankly ahead as Ms. Jones scribbled something on the blackboard. His eyes scanned the words without interest and his ears barely registered the lecture she gave the class. The tip of his pen rested lightly on his paper and from time to time he glanced down and made some nominal scribbles on the page. Normally, Donald enjoyed English class and he truly liked their current reading assignment. But he had read and discussed Huckleberry Finn last semester at his old school in Brunswick. This was the third time this month that one of his classes was covering a subject he felt had already been beaten to dust before he moved to Lincoln.
So, he tuned his ears to listen for his name, but otherwise zoned out of the lecture.
It didn't help that Ms. Jones had one of those melodic voices that rose and fell like the soft ripple of a mountain brook. Or that she was wearing an orange and red oddly patterned shirt with just enough shine to it that as she moved, patterns flickered and danced with the light. Her face reminded Donald of his grandmother, generally smooth, but with a few lines and bags starting to form along the creases of her mouth and the edges of her jawline. Her hair was somewhere between blond and grey as though it was still fighting to decide whether or not it was time to age.
Donald took a subtle glance at his watch and sighed. Nearly 30 minutes before lunch. He had no lunchtime expectations and yet he felt that any change would be preferable to the current situation. At least lunchtime meant he could stretch his legs, or maybe relax under one of the trees outside. He'd been at Lincoln High for 6 weeks and so far hadn't made any strides in the friends department. Sure there were kids who were nice enough to him and would let him sit with them or join in on their conversations, but so far he hadn't really clicked with anybody.
He looked casually around the room. Across the aisle from him, Jon Lambert frantically scribbled down notes, trying to capture every syllable Ms. Jones threw at them. Jon was a good enough guy and was friendly, but he was just far too intensely involved in schoolwork to really become friends with. Jon was one of those guys with serious goals for school but who also had to work very hard to even maintain a C average. The first few days of school, Donald had spent a little time working with Jon on a homework project for Chemistry. Donald found the assignment a little tedious at times, but generally not too bad. But working on it with Jon gave Donald a migraine that took 2 days to recover from.
In front of and behind Jon sat two girls Donald hadn't yet gotten to know. Their names were Samantha Jones and Dana McIntyre, but Donald still didn't know which was which. He watched as they sat relaxed, yet poised in their chairs paying moderate attention to the lecture and writing occasional notes. They were both very pretty girls and his first impression was that they were likely part of the "IN" crowd. Since he was the new kid and had no stereotypes associated with him yet, he'd said hello to them a couple of times and they usually smiled and returned his greeting. This was encouraging at first but neither girl ever let the conversation go much beyond 'hello'.
At first Donald thought they were the stereotypical snobs and that he should just forget even trying to get to know them. They definitely had the fashionable clothes, the cool new phones, the nice hair and the general demeanor of the snobby girls he knew from Brunswick, but they were different. As Donald watched them off and on over the first few weeks he was there, he noticed that they never really talked with anybody except each other, and even then it was in hushed whispers or in the far corners of the cafeteria or library. While the other popular girls spent time giggling in groups to garner attention or frantically tapping text messages into their phones, Samantha and Dana were solitary, subdued and generally seemed to disappear into the surroundings. All of which made Donald even more intrigued by them. He'd actually made up his mind that he would, in turn, ask each of them to the Spring Fling dance in two weeks. Even if they said no, it was bound to at least open up a larger conversation.
"Donald? What do you think?"
Donald whipped his head back to the blackboard, hoping that it had looked more like he was idly glancing around the room and not staring at the girls in the row next to him. Ms. Jones was looking at him expectantly. Murmurs began to rumble slowly at the edges of his hearing. He stared at the board behind her, trying to determine what her question may have been. Ms. Jones brow begin to furrow slightly in disappointment and her mouth opened to speak.
"About Huck's father?" Donald threw out a wild guess, knowing what today's reading assignment had covered. Ms. Jones tilted her head and pursed her lips in thought. More whispers and a giggle fluttered around the class.
"Not specifically, Donald, no. Although if you've read ahead or read this book before, I can see where you might want to take the discussion. But let's hold those thoughts for next class. Right now my question is about interactions between Huck and Jim and your thoughts on why Jim trusts Huck implicitly and even acts in many ways to protect and help Huck, such as protecting him from the images in the floating house. All of this in spite of Huck's being so untrustworthy."
Donald nodded thoughtfully, glad he had at least made a random statement that could at least partially apply. Ms. Jones took Donald's silence as not having any more to say and proceeded to ask for more feedback. Tanya Smith, a bubbly redhead at the far side of the room, began rambling on about the dynamics of slavery and the strange customs and beliefs that Jim had. Donald watched as Ms. Jones' face became softer and she nodded slightly at Tanya's remarks. He was just set to zone out again when one of the girls next to him leaned over the aisle and whispered to him.
"Nice save Donald. We were sure you were dead in the water."
As she sat back up in her chair, she gave a half smile and a wink. That short sentence had nearly doubled their conversational count over the past few weeks. Donald vowed that after class he would figure out if she was Samantha or Dana and he promised himself that by the end of the day he would have asked her to the dance.
He looked at his watch again. Only 10 more minutes until lunch. He spent most of it trying to come up with what to say to Samantha or Dana. He tried to ignore the near-silent-treatment of the last six weeks and imagine positive scenarios in which he not only asked her to the dance, but that she said yes and they became good friends. Once he envisioned them as boyfriend and girlfriend, but he quickly decided that was taking things too far. After all, he didn't even know her name.
So, he tuned his ears to listen for his name, but otherwise zoned out of the lecture.
It didn't help that Ms. Jones had one of those melodic voices that rose and fell like the soft ripple of a mountain brook. Or that she was wearing an orange and red oddly patterned shirt with just enough shine to it that as she moved, patterns flickered and danced with the light. Her face reminded Donald of his grandmother, generally smooth, but with a few lines and bags starting to form along the creases of her mouth and the edges of her jawline. Her hair was somewhere between blond and grey as though it was still fighting to decide whether or not it was time to age.
Donald took a subtle glance at his watch and sighed. Nearly 30 minutes before lunch. He had no lunchtime expectations and yet he felt that any change would be preferable to the current situation. At least lunchtime meant he could stretch his legs, or maybe relax under one of the trees outside. He'd been at Lincoln High for 6 weeks and so far hadn't made any strides in the friends department. Sure there were kids who were nice enough to him and would let him sit with them or join in on their conversations, but so far he hadn't really clicked with anybody.
He looked casually around the room. Across the aisle from him, Jon Lambert frantically scribbled down notes, trying to capture every syllable Ms. Jones threw at them. Jon was a good enough guy and was friendly, but he was just far too intensely involved in schoolwork to really become friends with. Jon was one of those guys with serious goals for school but who also had to work very hard to even maintain a C average. The first few days of school, Donald had spent a little time working with Jon on a homework project for Chemistry. Donald found the assignment a little tedious at times, but generally not too bad. But working on it with Jon gave Donald a migraine that took 2 days to recover from.
In front of and behind Jon sat two girls Donald hadn't yet gotten to know. Their names were Samantha Jones and Dana McIntyre, but Donald still didn't know which was which. He watched as they sat relaxed, yet poised in their chairs paying moderate attention to the lecture and writing occasional notes. They were both very pretty girls and his first impression was that they were likely part of the "IN" crowd. Since he was the new kid and had no stereotypes associated with him yet, he'd said hello to them a couple of times and they usually smiled and returned his greeting. This was encouraging at first but neither girl ever let the conversation go much beyond 'hello'.
At first Donald thought they were the stereotypical snobs and that he should just forget even trying to get to know them. They definitely had the fashionable clothes, the cool new phones, the nice hair and the general demeanor of the snobby girls he knew from Brunswick, but they were different. As Donald watched them off and on over the first few weeks he was there, he noticed that they never really talked with anybody except each other, and even then it was in hushed whispers or in the far corners of the cafeteria or library. While the other popular girls spent time giggling in groups to garner attention or frantically tapping text messages into their phones, Samantha and Dana were solitary, subdued and generally seemed to disappear into the surroundings. All of which made Donald even more intrigued by them. He'd actually made up his mind that he would, in turn, ask each of them to the Spring Fling dance in two weeks. Even if they said no, it was bound to at least open up a larger conversation.
"Donald? What do you think?"
Donald whipped his head back to the blackboard, hoping that it had looked more like he was idly glancing around the room and not staring at the girls in the row next to him. Ms. Jones was looking at him expectantly. Murmurs began to rumble slowly at the edges of his hearing. He stared at the board behind her, trying to determine what her question may have been. Ms. Jones brow begin to furrow slightly in disappointment and her mouth opened to speak.
"About Huck's father?" Donald threw out a wild guess, knowing what today's reading assignment had covered. Ms. Jones tilted her head and pursed her lips in thought. More whispers and a giggle fluttered around the class.
"Not specifically, Donald, no. Although if you've read ahead or read this book before, I can see where you might want to take the discussion. But let's hold those thoughts for next class. Right now my question is about interactions between Huck and Jim and your thoughts on why Jim trusts Huck implicitly and even acts in many ways to protect and help Huck, such as protecting him from the images in the floating house. All of this in spite of Huck's being so untrustworthy."
Donald nodded thoughtfully, glad he had at least made a random statement that could at least partially apply. Ms. Jones took Donald's silence as not having any more to say and proceeded to ask for more feedback. Tanya Smith, a bubbly redhead at the far side of the room, began rambling on about the dynamics of slavery and the strange customs and beliefs that Jim had. Donald watched as Ms. Jones' face became softer and she nodded slightly at Tanya's remarks. He was just set to zone out again when one of the girls next to him leaned over the aisle and whispered to him.
"Nice save Donald. We were sure you were dead in the water."
As she sat back up in her chair, she gave a half smile and a wink. That short sentence had nearly doubled their conversational count over the past few weeks. Donald vowed that after class he would figure out if she was Samantha or Dana and he promised himself that by the end of the day he would have asked her to the dance.
He looked at his watch again. Only 10 more minutes until lunch. He spent most of it trying to come up with what to say to Samantha or Dana. He tried to ignore the near-silent-treatment of the last six weeks and imagine positive scenarios in which he not only asked her to the dance, but that she said yes and they became good friends. Once he envisioned them as boyfriend and girlfriend, but he quickly decided that was taking things too far. After all, he didn't even know her name.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Wednesday Writings #1 - The Magazine Salesman
Welcome to the first of my "Wednesday Writings" posts. To find them all, use the "Wednesday Writing" link at the top of the page or click on the label name at the bottom of this post. Don't worry, future posts won't include this overview.
I look forward to comments and feedback. I'm sure these won't appeal to everybody and I'm sure there will be some I'd rather delete and not post (I'll try to keep myself honest and post whatever I write for this exercise). In the end though, my hope is that this will help me get into a writing rhythm so I can actually start pumping out some good stuff again.
Thanks for your support.
And now, enjoy. :)
The Magazine Salesman
I sat perched on the edge of the couch, the muscles in my legs tense and ready to jump up at any moment. My fingers alternately twitched nervously and clung tightly to the magazine I held in my lap. I knew the room was warm as I felt small patches of sweat building under my arms and along my spine. And yet, from time to time, I felt a chill and fought the urge to shiver.
The room was silent except for a soft ticking from a full sized grandfather clock that stood next to a tall lamp with a faded yellow shade that diluted the dreary light from the bulb beneath it. The lamp drizzled forth a depressing circle of yellow light that extended a few feet into the room. Through the small diamond shaped window on the door, a shaft of bright-white sunlight shot through the air and pierced the grey-green shag carpet. Brown floor-to-ceiling drapes covered more than half of two walls, the one by the door and the one straight across from me. The walls were painted in a subdued white that was dingy and stained and had the appearance of a fat summer storm cloud.
I let my eyes wander around the room in a matter that seemed aimless but was actually consciously avoiding three particular points in the room.
The first place I tried to avoid looking was towards the closed front door. I let my peripheral vision occasionally look at the sturdy brown wood and gleaming brass doorknob. But I hated to acknowledge the locked dead bolt above the knob and the small chain latched near the top of the door.
The second place I avoided looking was the small glass table sitting to my right at the edge of the couch. I avoided any possible glance to the right for fear of even picking up a sideways glance at the dusty table and the heavy, smooth, cold object ominously awaiting my touch.
The final place I didn't want to look was the hardest to avoid since I knew it was staring back at me. Straight across from me, in a high leather wingback chair sat a withered old man with dull grey hair, a wrinkled and sagging face, sunken cheeks and eyes, and a pair of surprisingly bright and penetrating cool blue eyes.
I kept my eyes focused on the floor or the ceiling, trying to make myself believe that he wasn't there.
That he hadn't invited me into his home when I knocked on his door selling magazine subscriptions to support a children's charity.
That I hadn't accepted the invitation and followed him into his living room and out of the summer heat.
That I hadn't followed his instructions to sit down on his green and black polyester couch while he methodically locked the front door and sat down in the chair across from me.
That I hadn't followed his instructions to remove the black handkerchief laying on the glass table next to the couch.
Most of all, I tried to make myself believe that I hadn't knocked on his door in the first place.
If I hadn't knocked on the door, he couldn't have invited me in. I couldn't have accepted the invitation. I wouldn't be sitting on his couch right now.
"Have you sufficiently prepared yourself?"
His voice instinctively pulled my eyes up to meet his. I reluctantly stared at the old man. His hands rested lightly on the armrests, his fingers rubbing up and down within the light valleys worn into the leather after years of use. He wore a faded black suit that hung loose around his shoulders and legs. A faded red tie hung slightly off center over his time worn off-white shirt.
I opened my mouth to speak. My voice caught in my throat and I coughed slightly then shifted uneasily.
"Come now. Speak up. My ears aren't as helpful as they were in years past."
He tilted his head as he spoke then lifted his hand and gestured to the glass table beside me.
"Truly though, you needn't say a word. Just pick up the gun and use it."
As he mentioned the gun I felt every muscle in my body tense up. I felt my heart began to race and could feel the blood throbbing in my head. I looked to my right and stared at the table. Sitting beside the crumpled black handkerchief was a revolver, dull and grey. I knew nearly nothing about guns, but this one looked old and well used. It didn't look like an "old west" pistol but it certainly didn't match what I'd seen of new guns from modern action movies. The metal was smooth and dull, a deep grey, almost block along the barrel. The handle of the gun had a black patch of leather with some sort of pattern. It looked like generic scrollwork, but in the center there were three letters BTK within what looked like a horse's head.
"Just pick it up. Aim. And pull the trigger."
I kept staring at the gun, trying to convince myself that none of this was real. That I was somehow dreaming this. But my dreams had never been this vivid. I distinctly remembered walking down his street knocking on doors. I could feel the stifling warmth of the room, the sweat dripping down my back. I could smell the dust and stagnant air of the old home. I could hear the ticking of the clock.
But right now, I was focused on the gun. I could see intricate details that I know I wouldn't have noticed in my dreams. I saw where the edges of the leather were torn or fraying. I saw flecks of rust along the edge of the trigger. I noticed gleams of red, green and orange near the end of the barrel.
"Don't think any more. Just listen to my voice."
Somehow, the old man's voice seemed louder and stronger than it had before.
"Pick up the gun."
Without realizing what had happened, I noticed the gun in my hand. It felt heavy. I could feel the warm leather grip panel against my palm. It felt right somehow.
"Pull back the hammer"
I had no idea what he meant, but I watched as my right thumb reached up and pulled down on the hammer.
"Good. Now aim the gun and pull the trigger."
I hesitated a moment, caught up in the realization that I held a gun in my hand.
"Don't think about it. Just point the gun and squeeze the trigger."
I watched my hand turn. I felt the muscles in my fingers twitch and then watched as my finger slowly squeezed down on the trigger until
BANG!
I look forward to comments and feedback. I'm sure these won't appeal to everybody and I'm sure there will be some I'd rather delete and not post (I'll try to keep myself honest and post whatever I write for this exercise). In the end though, my hope is that this will help me get into a writing rhythm so I can actually start pumping out some good stuff again.
Thanks for your support.
And now, enjoy. :)
I sat perched on the edge of the couch, the muscles in my legs tense and ready to jump up at any moment. My fingers alternately twitched nervously and clung tightly to the magazine I held in my lap. I knew the room was warm as I felt small patches of sweat building under my arms and along my spine. And yet, from time to time, I felt a chill and fought the urge to shiver.
The room was silent except for a soft ticking from a full sized grandfather clock that stood next to a tall lamp with a faded yellow shade that diluted the dreary light from the bulb beneath it. The lamp drizzled forth a depressing circle of yellow light that extended a few feet into the room. Through the small diamond shaped window on the door, a shaft of bright-white sunlight shot through the air and pierced the grey-green shag carpet. Brown floor-to-ceiling drapes covered more than half of two walls, the one by the door and the one straight across from me. The walls were painted in a subdued white that was dingy and stained and had the appearance of a fat summer storm cloud.
I let my eyes wander around the room in a matter that seemed aimless but was actually consciously avoiding three particular points in the room.
The first place I tried to avoid looking was towards the closed front door. I let my peripheral vision occasionally look at the sturdy brown wood and gleaming brass doorknob. But I hated to acknowledge the locked dead bolt above the knob and the small chain latched near the top of the door.
The second place I avoided looking was the small glass table sitting to my right at the edge of the couch. I avoided any possible glance to the right for fear of even picking up a sideways glance at the dusty table and the heavy, smooth, cold object ominously awaiting my touch.
The final place I didn't want to look was the hardest to avoid since I knew it was staring back at me. Straight across from me, in a high leather wingback chair sat a withered old man with dull grey hair, a wrinkled and sagging face, sunken cheeks and eyes, and a pair of surprisingly bright and penetrating cool blue eyes.
I kept my eyes focused on the floor or the ceiling, trying to make myself believe that he wasn't there.
That he hadn't invited me into his home when I knocked on his door selling magazine subscriptions to support a children's charity.
That I hadn't accepted the invitation and followed him into his living room and out of the summer heat.
That I hadn't followed his instructions to sit down on his green and black polyester couch while he methodically locked the front door and sat down in the chair across from me.
That I hadn't followed his instructions to remove the black handkerchief laying on the glass table next to the couch.
Most of all, I tried to make myself believe that I hadn't knocked on his door in the first place.
If I hadn't knocked on the door, he couldn't have invited me in. I couldn't have accepted the invitation. I wouldn't be sitting on his couch right now.
"Have you sufficiently prepared yourself?"
His voice instinctively pulled my eyes up to meet his. I reluctantly stared at the old man. His hands rested lightly on the armrests, his fingers rubbing up and down within the light valleys worn into the leather after years of use. He wore a faded black suit that hung loose around his shoulders and legs. A faded red tie hung slightly off center over his time worn off-white shirt.
I opened my mouth to speak. My voice caught in my throat and I coughed slightly then shifted uneasily.
"Come now. Speak up. My ears aren't as helpful as they were in years past."
He tilted his head as he spoke then lifted his hand and gestured to the glass table beside me.
"Truly though, you needn't say a word. Just pick up the gun and use it."
As he mentioned the gun I felt every muscle in my body tense up. I felt my heart began to race and could feel the blood throbbing in my head. I looked to my right and stared at the table. Sitting beside the crumpled black handkerchief was a revolver, dull and grey. I knew nearly nothing about guns, but this one looked old and well used. It didn't look like an "old west" pistol but it certainly didn't match what I'd seen of new guns from modern action movies. The metal was smooth and dull, a deep grey, almost block along the barrel. The handle of the gun had a black patch of leather with some sort of pattern. It looked like generic scrollwork, but in the center there were three letters BTK within what looked like a horse's head.
"Just pick it up. Aim. And pull the trigger."
I kept staring at the gun, trying to convince myself that none of this was real. That I was somehow dreaming this. But my dreams had never been this vivid. I distinctly remembered walking down his street knocking on doors. I could feel the stifling warmth of the room, the sweat dripping down my back. I could smell the dust and stagnant air of the old home. I could hear the ticking of the clock.
But right now, I was focused on the gun. I could see intricate details that I know I wouldn't have noticed in my dreams. I saw where the edges of the leather were torn or fraying. I saw flecks of rust along the edge of the trigger. I noticed gleams of red, green and orange near the end of the barrel.
"Don't think any more. Just listen to my voice."
Somehow, the old man's voice seemed louder and stronger than it had before.
"Pick up the gun."
Without realizing what had happened, I noticed the gun in my hand. It felt heavy. I could feel the warm leather grip panel against my palm. It felt right somehow.
"Pull back the hammer"
I had no idea what he meant, but I watched as my right thumb reached up and pulled down on the hammer.
"Good. Now aim the gun and pull the trigger."
I hesitated a moment, caught up in the realization that I held a gun in my hand.
"Don't think about it. Just point the gun and squeeze the trigger."
I watched my hand turn. I felt the muscles in my fingers twitch and then watched as my finger slowly squeezed down on the trigger until
BANG!
Friday, March 12, 2010
Goal - Wednesday Writings - Help me out
OK, yes, I realize today is Friday. But I'm making this post as a way of setting up some accountability for myself ahead of time.
My personal goals for this year included goals to: read scriptures daily, get a regular exercise regime going, write in my journal weekly, attend the temple monthly, read 50 novels, and get a WEEKLY CREATIVE WRITING cadence going (with some story/novel/edit/revision goals tied to it).
The scripture reading and temple attendance are going well so far. I've exercised, but not enough to call it a 'regime', so I've got to work on that. I've only written in my journal once so far.
But the one I haven't done ANYTHING with so far, is my Creative Writing goal.
So…I'm putting this out to the world for accountability.
At the very least, I will do some creative writing every Tuesday or Wednesday and as proof to myself and others, I will post that writing to my blog in the form of a "Wednesday Writings" post. Depending on the scale of the writing I actually do, it may be the entire piece or may just be an excerpt. In either case, I'm hoping that YOU will help me stay accountable….How, you ask? If Thursday rolls around and you don't see any Writing from me…hit me up with a message calling me a slacker or some other encouraging epithet.
At the very least, this practice should get my writing juices flowing again. At the best, it will potentially produce some fun and interesting writing.
As always, I appreciate comments and criticism.
Thanks for your help.
My personal goals for this year included goals to: read scriptures daily, get a regular exercise regime going, write in my journal weekly, attend the temple monthly, read 50 novels, and get a WEEKLY CREATIVE WRITING cadence going (with some story/novel/edit/revision goals tied to it).
The scripture reading and temple attendance are going well so far. I've exercised, but not enough to call it a 'regime', so I've got to work on that. I've only written in my journal once so far.
But the one I haven't done ANYTHING with so far, is my Creative Writing goal.
So…I'm putting this out to the world for accountability.
At the very least, I will do some creative writing every Tuesday or Wednesday and as proof to myself and others, I will post that writing to my blog in the form of a "Wednesday Writings" post. Depending on the scale of the writing I actually do, it may be the entire piece or may just be an excerpt. In either case, I'm hoping that YOU will help me stay accountable….How, you ask? If Thursday rolls around and you don't see any Writing from me…hit me up with a message calling me a slacker or some other encouraging epithet.
At the very least, this practice should get my writing juices flowing again. At the best, it will potentially produce some fun and interesting writing.
As always, I appreciate comments and criticism.
Thanks for your help.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Scout-O-Rama 2010 tickets for sale!
OK, I realize I missed the official "kick-off day" for this announcement, so I'm behind the curve. Be that as it may, I wanted to let you know that my boys are both selling tickets to the 2010 Scout-O-Rama here in Salt Lake City, UT on May 1. Tickets are only $5, support a great cause, include valuable coupons and provide admittance to a great event.
Check out the video below for some highlights (and celebrity endorsements *grin*)
If you are in need of a Scout-O-Rama ticket (or even if you don't need one but just want to help out), shoot me a message and I'll hook you up.
Thanks. :)
Check out the video below for some highlights (and celebrity endorsements *grin*)
If you are in need of a Scout-O-Rama ticket (or even if you don't need one but just want to help out), shoot me a message and I'll hook you up.
Thanks. :)
Corey Haim dead
Corey Haim is now dead from an apparent drug overdose (not a big surprise, given his history...but still a bummer). As a child of the 80s, I was a fan of "the Coreys" (both Haim and Feldman). I didn't see him as a "heartthrob" but I did enjoy his films. I was actually surprised to see that he was still making ~2-3 movies each year since I haven't really seen him or followed him since the 1989 Dream a Little Dream. I knew he'd done a sequel to that film and a couple of other movies in the early 90s, but was surprised a little by his recent imdb profile.
I might have to take some time this weekend to watch some of my old Corey faves...maybe a little License to Drive or Dream a Little Dream.
I might have to take some time this weekend to watch some of my old Corey faves...maybe a little License to Drive or Dream a Little Dream.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Nonsensical ramblings of Johnny Depp
The nonsensical ramblings of Johnny Depp as featured in this mashup by Moviefone.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
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